refraining over and over agian by ashley nicole rockhold august 25,2004 9:20 p.m. central standard time

the wind has away with time. your eyes have away with me. i look into your eyes trying to figure out your mystery. i'm alone. i need something. i need someone. i cry, i prey but theres no reply. isn't anyone needing me? i search looking for a reason to live. the wind blows in my hair as i watch the days pass by. everytime i get near the light you push me away. isn't there anyone that truely loves me? and when i look into your eyes i see your pain refraining. it feels like there is no one like me, no one that understands me and the way i feel. in the four corners of my universe i can't find a reason to live. can't you tell that i'm hurting? can't find a reason to live, don't you see my pain? can you see my tears? all i wanted was someone who loved me. can't stand to see that girl looking right back at me. she looks so sad. mirror shattering, blood leaking, heart pounding, thoughts flying, who am i?; what should i do? all i wanted was a place in everyone's heart. i look into the mirror and i can't stand the person i see. how have i made it this long? how much longer can i go on? why does everyone have to be so cruel? its so hard to keep an open heart. when will my time come? am i destined to fail? i try not to cry. i glance at the moon. i close my eyes and i see you. please don't leave me. my heart is like an shattered mirror. why do you resent my feelings? you can't just leave me here all alone to fight a losing battle. only if i could forget, i wish i could stop caring, if only i could let go of the past, then maybe i could be happy for a sec. my heart is bleading... please someone save me... although the link to my heart has been closed it still hurts.... who is it that i see when i look into their' eyes? i recall a time when you loved me. i feel a pain that begins to refrain over and over. if i could allow myself to stop refraining do you think i could actually reach paradise?